Tersentak dari alam kealpaan...

Hari ini hari selasa,22.june.2010,

Its totally different from other morning..I dunno...somehow i could feel something will going on.
As usual i arrived at the office around 7.Its very dark as it was rainning this morning.


Usually when i arrived in the office i will straightly opened and read my emails, favourite blog, and read the news.

I love reading other people blog.It is because somethings that never occured to us , happened to them.How they were very capable of handling their problems and yet they were very strong.

One blog caught my attention.Its dedicated to late adik alanna "bidadari syurga".http://mayyonnizz.blogspot.com.The parent to adik alanna were strong.Adik alanna just passed away wo weeks ago because the unsual disesa called Gauthcher disease.
Subahannallah, i cannot stop crying.I am not that strong.


When i saw adik alanna picture, she looked so pure.....towards the end of her life she looks sooooo calm..because she knew heaven and angels waiting for her..No more pain, no more despair......

And adik alanna story really touched the very fragile part in my heart.When i think back,My tests that given by HIm is not that much.I am blessed with beautiful and handsome child ,a husband that loves me (i hope), a wonderful family.complete tho we were not as rich as other people.But the point is we were complete as one family.manusia itu mudah lupa.and i myslef in that group.Kisah adik alanna menyedarkan me that bila bila saja nikmat ini boleh ditarik OLEHNYA.Nikmat kesihatan, nikmat merasa, nikmat , mengidu, nikmat penglihatan,nikmat paras rupa,nikmat makan.....

Ya Tuhan, ampunkan hambamu ini ya Tuhanku...Dosaku seluas angkasa, namun Kau tetap berikan ku segala nikmat yang ade di atas muka bumi ini tanpa berbelah bahagi.Kau masih lagi memberi peluang kepadaku untuk kembali kepada-Mu walau aku ini penuh dengan dosa dan nista.

Tuhanku, berilah peluang kepada hamba-Mu ini untuk melakukan satu anjakan keatas dirinya walaupun cuma sejengkal aja tapaknya menuju kearah kebaikan.Akan aku cuba untuk mendidik diriku ini dan anak lelaki ku agar senantiasa merendahkan diri dan bersujud kepada-Mu tuhan.Tunjukkanalah cahaya kebaikan kepada kami sekeluarga ..

Buat adik alanna, ku tahu bahagia menantimu disana, Alfatihah buatmu serikandi syurga yang hakiki.Semoga kedua ibu bapamu terus tabah dalam meniti hari-hari tanpamu sayang.........