Waiting For the end....

This is not the end
This is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something emptys within em

We say yeah

With fists flying up in the air
Like we’re holding onto something that’s invisible there
Cuz we’re living at the mercy of the pain and the fear
Until we dead it forget it
Let it all disappear

Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strenght to stand
This is not what I had planned
It’s out of my control
Flying at the speed of light

Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It’s hard to let you go
I know what it takes to move on
I know how it feels to lie
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t got

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to lastI wish it wasn’t so
What was left when that fire was goneI thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it’s like moving on
And I don’t even know what kind of things I said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
Picking up those pieces now where to begin

The hardest part of ending is starting again
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t gotThis is not the end

This is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something emptys within em

We say yeahWith fists flying up in the air
Like we’re holding onto something that’s invisible there
Cuz we’re living at the mercy of the pain and the fear
Until we dead it forget itLet it all disappear

(Credit to LinKin Park)

Thanks to linkinpark who came out with this song.Truly its actually kind of the feelings that i am going through right now.Tho i actually knew what's the next step i should take but its hard...very hard.My heart have no space for marriage disaster because i am full with my son's future.Thats all that matters.What ever decision that i will make, i am sure to follow my heart.Coz i believed Our God always whispers the right path that we should take if we actually sincere pleading HIM.SO GOD , i am sincere pleading U , Please show me the way to get the ultimate peace and calm life.Amin.